A night of thought

Once again I found myself unable to sleep last night. And my thoughts turned to the concept of dominance and submission. I found myself lingering on the slight difference between the two. A Dom is uncomfortable when they are not in control and making decisions, a sub is uncomfortable when they are in control. Does that mean that a Dom is always in control and a sub always out of control? No, the biggest reason that so many people get involved in the submissive side of the BDSM community is to relieve the tension that having to be in control in their day to day lives. Conversely, over the years I have met many Doms who have to allow someone else to control their lives at work and the lifestyle allows them to releave that tension as well. In the perfect society no one would have to live an uncomfortable life, nor would anyone have to try and be what they are not.

Sometimes

Sometimes in life we think we know what we want, then we find that we have completely misunderstood our own desires. I wonder why humans are like this. Maybe we are cursed by having the ability to analyze our actions and sometimes are frozen into inaction by that curse.

Frailty of life

Recently I have had the fragility of life driven home to me in a very personal way. My mother has cancer, and it is spreading fast. I am not sure how long she will last. Makes me really regret the years we spent not speaking to each other. We should all remember that life is too short to let our petty problems interfere with our relationships.